Tuesday, January 24, 2006
It's over and I feel fine
Nothing you could say is gonna change my mind
Waiting and I wait at the longest night
Nothing like the taste to sweet decline
I was down, I fell, I fell so fast
Dropping like the grains in an hourglass
Never say forever cause nothing last
Dancing with the thorns of my buried past
Nevermind there's nothing I can do
Bet your life there's something killing you
It's a shame we have to die my dear
No ones getting out of here, alive
What a way to go, they have no fear
No ones getting out of here, alive
Finished, I'm getting you off my chest
Made you come clean in a dirty dress
A promise is a promise you kept in check
Heart across a heart that beats it's best
Take a good hard look for the very last time
The very last one in a very long line
Only took a second to say goodbye
Then the pleasure 'bout the pleasure's
been mine, all mine
"DOA", Foo Fighters
Friday, January 20, 2006
The king was shaken. He went up to the room over the gateway and wept. As he went, he said: "O my son Absalom! My son, my son Absalom! If only I had died instead of you—O Absalom, my son, my son!" 2 Samuel 18:33
Absalom, David's son, had tried to overthrow him...tried to kill him. To say that Absalom had disappointed David would be a real understatement. I can only imagine the torment David was going through, how angry he must have been...and how guilty he must have felt for being angry with his son. Even in the end, he did not want Absalom...his "enemy" to be hurt (let alone killed). Even Joab knew this, he tried to tell this to Ahimaaz who did not understand that the news of David's "victory" was not good news at all.
Instead of rejoicing in "victory", David mourned his son's death.
It's really hard to be mad at someone that you love in your heart. Someone that is supposed to be at your side and defend you when you can't defend yourself. For me, personally, it's like a storm inside my body, the guilt comes in waves (BTW, this is NOT about my son). Some days, I'm just mad and it's OK, I mean I have every right to be mad. The more I know about my past, the more frustrated I get. Then I think I can't be mad at this person, it's just not allowed! I must be an awful person to feel this way.
Lord, just give me the strength to trust you with this. I want to know your infinite mercy and be assured that everything that happens in my life is for your purpose and is by design. It's hard to understand (sometimes impossible), so I'm just going to hold your hand and follow you through this...OK?
Monday, January 09, 2006
At this point in many of my thoughts I would say..."for me...", but not on this one. I just don't get it. It's as plain as the nose on my face (and trust me, you can't miss mine). Baptism is essential to salvation. God, through his holy, inspired word, has made this clear. We can debate things like instrumental/Acapella music, or preaching styles or missionaries all day long because there is some room in many aspects of Christianity for interpretation. However, baptism is a straight-forward, salvation issue. God commands it, he shows us time and again examples of those being saved when they are baptized...so...what's the big deal?
In my humble opinion, I think part of it is simple laziness. Why bother getting all wet and putting yourself out there for everyone to see, when you can call yourself a Christian just be uttering a few words? When you do that, it's more like a new year's resolution..."I'm going to be a better person, I'm going to be Christian", then when you fall short you can just forget it all happened and be done with it and go about the life you had before all this. Christ knows we are going to fall short and disappoint him, but we are saved by his blood, his sacrifice, his pain...he died for us, can't we just do a simple act that he asks of us? When you give yourself to Christ and are baptized you die to the sin and pain of your old self and come up out of the water a new person, cleansed by the blood that Christ bled on the cross FOR YOU.
Every "serious" person of Christ that I have every met has been baptized even if they didn't think it was essential to salvation.
Maybe that's why the muslim faith is growing so much, there's no such thing as baptism in it. you can be a muslim just be uttering a few words. Yes, to be a "super-muslim" you have to visit Mecca, but how many of the 1.2 billion muslims have actually done that?
Just something I was thinking about. Yes, a little venting.
Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved, but whoever does not believe will be condemned. Mark 16:16
When the people heard this, they were cut to the heart and said to Peter and the other apostles, "Brothers, what shall we do?" Peter replied, "Repent and be baptized, every one of you, in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins. And you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit. The promise is for you and your children and for all who are far off—for all whom the Lord our God will call." Acts 2:37-39
You are all sons of God through faith in Christ Jesus, for all of you who were baptized into Christ have clothed yourselves with Christ. Galatians 3:26,27
Thursday, January 05, 2006
He nudges us when we need to take a step in a the right direction.
He sends people into our lives to affect us or just plain save us.
Other times he just literally reaches down and picks us up.
Often he moves "immovable objects" out of our way.
He inspires us to be our best and forgives us when we let him down.
There are times when I know he just lifts me up and carries me because I can't make it.
I am a screw up. I know that. I am going to mess up, over and over again. God opens doors and I pause in the entryway, gripped by fear. He forgives me over and over again...why...I don't know. He carries me in his loving arms through tough times and blesses me more than I can imagine and much, much more than I deserve.
Then there are other times when I just pray "Lord, break my fall". I know I am going to fall, just like we know that our children are going to fall off their bike and skin their knees. Sometimes I'm afraid that my fall is imminent and unavoidable and all I ask is that God will break my fall.